You automatically think everything happens for a reason. Its a way of helping your self accept what is going on at the moment. But honestly, would you walk up to someone that just lost their loved one and say "Everything happens for a reason"? I think not. You will probably no longer be friends or punched in the face.
A friend of mine truly believes that nothing happens for a reason. Him and I would have arguments constantly about why I believed they do and why he disagrees. I thought that if one thing happens its so that another thing can happen, and then this thing happens because that happened and then you end up where your suppose to be. Well these days, I don't believe that as much. I used it as a band aid for the negative that was in my life. I figured it was suppose to happen and a good experience was going to come of it.
Now I think I understand what my friend was meaning when he said nothing happens for a reason.
I believe that God shows me things or puts me in situations in my life but its what it does to me and the way it makes me feel that brings reason to them. There is no reason that I fell out of that tree except for the fact that I learned my lesson to be more careful. There is no reason for why I got hurt in that relationship. It wasn't so that better can come along, it wasn't so that I can make that change for me. It was for me to learn a lesson and know when I'm truly being loved and cared for. I have faith that any obstacle, no matter how big or small, I am going to overcome it and I'm going to learn from it. I have a faith that only comes from the experience. I read this quote from a man named Jared and he says "Its important to realize that things happen around us, not to us."
With the crazy summer that Ive had and all the obstacles that have came my way such as Tess getting bite by the dog, breaking her leg, breaking up with Wyatt, meeting new people and then getting back with Wyatt, I have realized that these where all lessons that I have learned from. They didn't happen in my life intentionally, they just occured and I made a conscious decisions that contributed to these occurrences.
With Tesslynn getting bit by the dog I learned how to calm a scared child, how to remain calm for her sake, how wrap a dog bite and care for an open wound how to be loving and nurturing on a whole other level then what I do on a daily basis.
Her broken leg, I learned to tell when a leg is broken or sprained, how to elevate a broken leg, how wrap it, how to care for a cast, how teach her to walk again.
Wyatt and I breaking up. I learned that I can not give love to someone very easily without fulling loving my self first.
Meeting people such as Kevin. There wasn't a reason I met him. I didn't get my job so that I can meet him, we can have a strong relationship, we can stop dating every 3 months, start dating again, and I can find what I want. I met him by choice and I learned so much from him. I learned how to laugh again over the simplest things, I learned how communicate on a mature level, how to understand someone else's feelings and not just think about my self. I learned how to enjoy other things in life like Hikes, plays, movies, fancy dinners and more.
Getting back with Wyatt I learned that I need to love my self while loving someone else. I learned how to not focus on the petty annoyances and focus on the things that really matter. Like the happiness of our family, the laughter in all 3 of our voices, the sound of a quiet house when my little family is sound asleep. These are things that matter most.
If there are obstacles that are in my way of learning more from the experiences that have already taught me so much, then I need to move those obstacles and continue to focus on learning life lessons everyday.
Tesslynn may get hurt again one day but I will have more knowledge on how to care for her, how to help heal her, how to stay calm. Wyatt and I may break up permanently but it wont be for a reason, it wont be so that something else can come along, it'll be gods way of allowing me to learn a new lesson. Kevin and I may never talk again or we may be good friend but it'll teach a new lesson and I will continue to grow.
Everything that comes my way is now a lesson and I will embrace it. I will love what life throws upon me and I will find wisdom from it.
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